Hello, I’m Rhian, or Rhi for short.
I am just about starting out on my journey to be a grown-up, at the ripe old age of 37.
I have a mortgage, a daughter, a husband and run my own business. I can drive, drink wine, make coffee. I have a credit card, in-laws and pets. All the stuff I figured I’d have when I ‘grew up’, yet I still feel about 17. I still feel I have to ask permission for stuff, but I don’t know who to ask. I look around and wonder ‘who has let me do this?’ Whatever ‘this’ may be.
And I’ve got it pegged down to the fact that I don’t want to take responsibility, I don’t want to be accountable. I need someone to blame or make the decision for me, to fix stuff when it goes wrong, or I just stay safe and wait.
So I’ve decided it’s time to put my big girl pants on and deal with it.
All of it.
My debt & personal finances, growing my business, keeping my house clean, reducing waste, being a good mum & wife, all the things a good grown up should do. Make my own decisions, even if it’s as simple as what to have for dinner. (Yes, I am that bad at decisions.) I need to find out what I want and bloody well go for it.
In fact, I just need to go for it and work it all out on the way.
I am just about starting out on my journey to be a grown-up, at the ripe old age of 37.
I have a mortgage, a daughter, a husband and run my own business. I can drive, drink wine, make coffee. I have a credit card, in-laws and pets. All the stuff I figured I’d have when I ‘grew up’, yet I still feel about 17. I still feel I have to ask permission for stuff, but I don’t know who to ask. I look around and wonder ‘who has let me do this?’ Whatever ‘this’ may be.
And I’ve got it pegged down to the fact that I don’t want to take responsibility, I don’t want to be accountable. I need someone to blame or make the decision for me, to fix stuff when it goes wrong, or I just stay safe and wait.
So I’ve decided it’s time to put my big girl pants on and deal with it.
All of it.
My debt & personal finances, growing my business, keeping my house clean, reducing waste, being a good mum & wife, all the things a good grown up should do. Make my own decisions, even if it’s as simple as what to have for dinner. (Yes, I am that bad at decisions.) I need to find out what I want and bloody well go for it.
In fact, I just need to go for it and work it all out on the way.
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